Do you all ever feel like you can get stuck ruminating even in whether determining if something is "Just Right" OCD since it's like not perfectly clear or outlined?
Exactly! I didn't even realize too that I was ruminating or seeking reassurance about things that I feared were applicable to me. In general, I tend to worry a lot about whether something is "actually" OCD or whether there is true danger or stress. I've found that I use that as a permission giving statement too. I've started to honor the phrase, "If even 2% is OCD, then you can challenge it. Assume everything is OCD.".
Yes! Until I was diagnosed with OCD in 2018 I had NO idea that I have spent my entire life ruminating about EVERYTHING from the smallest of things to the biggest. Recently after ERP I find myself ruminating about it. Did I do it right? What if I’m lying about my SUDs score? I essentially end up negating the entire ERP by spending so much time ruminating about the logistics of it. I’ve been working on mindfulness and being in the present moment which is SO hard. It’s a slow process but I’m learning that even one mindful minute is a step toward being well. I’m still struggling the majority of the time with rumination but I continue to work on self compassion and reminding myself that I can do it!
Yes! Unfortunately, I am a pro at this. In recent years I was stuck in depression and rumination. I felt like I could get my way out ...but first I needed to think about things more as if I could think my way out. So I sat and sat ...and found myself more depressed. I thought OMG what is happening to me?? I was scared. I'm going into a black hole and no one will be able to understand. I will act on a fearful thought. I am ALONE and crazy. So many paralyzing "what if" thoughts...I get anxious just writing this. Still now, I try to think my way out. I think about the past as if I can fix it....I ruminate...sometimes for long periods. However, these days I catch it sooner than I used to. I will have real feelings of something here ( in this moment ) doesn't feel right. My instinct is to sit down and start scanning everything until I figure out the source of this feeling....I want to be perfect and rid that source! That is OCD trying to hook me. So now I will stay on that treadmill for a while and then get up and take action on something. I can choose to get myself in the present right now. My hope is that I will practice this more and more often and my life will continue to unfold for me. Things will be more fluid...less thought and more action. The good news is that now I have hope.
Woah, this was both relatable and inspiring at the same time. I can definitely relate to that feeling- it's this sensation for me of having missed something, kind of like there's something huge and important that I'm forgetting, and the urge is to do mental reviewing and/or repeat rituals "just to be sure I did them correctly".
YES. I am no stranger to obsessing about obsessing! My thoughts: if I'm having the urge to change something to make it feel more "right" or otherwise make myself feel better, I ought to assume it's "Just Right" OCD, resist that urge, and re-shift. :)
Exactly! I didn't even realize too that I was ruminating or seeking reassurance about things that I feared were applicable to me. In general, I tend to worry a lot about whether something is "actually" OCD or whether there is true danger or stress. I've found that I use that as a permission giving statement too. I've started to honor the phrase, "If even 2% is OCD, then you can challenge it. Assume everything is OCD.".
Yes! Until I was diagnosed with OCD in 2018 I had NO idea that I have spent my entire life ruminating about EVERYTHING from the smallest of things to the biggest. Recently after ERP I find myself ruminating about it. Did I do it right? What if I’m lying about my SUDs score? I essentially end up negating the entire ERP by spending so much time ruminating about the logistics of it. I’ve been working on mindfulness and being in the present moment which is SO hard. It’s a slow process but I’m learning that even one mindful minute is a step toward being well. I’m still struggling the majority of the time with rumination but I continue to work on self compassion and reminding myself that I can do it!
Yes! Unfortunately, I am a pro at this. In recent years I was stuck in depression and rumination. I felt like I could get my way out ...but first I needed to think about things more as if I could think my way out. So I sat and sat ...and found myself more depressed. I thought OMG what is happening to me?? I was scared. I'm going into a black hole and no one will be able to understand. I will act on a fearful thought. I am ALONE and crazy. So many paralyzing "what if" thoughts...I get anxious just writing this. Still now, I try to think my way out. I think about the past as if I can fix it....I ruminate...sometimes for long periods. However, these days I catch it sooner than I used to. I will have real feelings of something here ( in this moment ) doesn't feel right. My instinct is to sit down and start scanning everything until I figure out the source of this feeling....I want to be perfect and rid that source! That is OCD trying to hook me. So now I will stay on that treadmill for a while and then get up and take action on something. I can choose to get myself in the present right now. My hope is that I will practice this more and more often and my life will continue to unfold for me. Things will be more fluid...less thought and more action. The good news is that now I have hope.
YES. I am no stranger to obsessing about obsessing! My thoughts: if I'm having the urge to change something to make it feel more "right" or otherwise make myself feel better, I ought to assume it's "Just Right" OCD, resist that urge, and re-shift. :)